The Baby I Hold in My Heart

By Susie Maurer, Core Writer October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month Today I’m going to tell a story that I didn’t want to tell. It’s not because the story isn’t worth telling—quite the contrary—but because no woman should have to tell this story. I spent this past summer daydreaming about living this October … [Read more…]

The day I couldn’t cope anymore

Please note: Discussion of depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts   By Katie Balthazor, Guest Writer I have struggled with depression since high school but since I didn’t understand the emotions I was feeling, I turned to self-harm. I would cut or burn myself and was fascinated how the pain distracted me and pushed aside other … [Read more…]

The Healthiest Baby in the NICU

By Sheila Mulhern, Guest Writer My son Asher had to go to the NICU for about 12 hours after he was born. He was pretty tiny at birth, only weighing 5 pounds, 2 ounces. He was born at just over 37 weeks, so while he was still technically premature, he really should have been bigger … [Read more…]

The chance to show up

By Brett Baker, Core Writer I don’t have a lot of personal experience with tragedy. I was fortunate to grow up in a healthy home, and I’ve gotten through most of my adult life without a tremendous amount of grief. I’m thankful for this–very thankful. I’ve dealt with dysfunction, trauma, depression and other heavy issues, … [Read more…]